So yesterday I talked to my dad. I had some good news from the doctor. He basically said that one of the tests he took was negative. Basically I am still cancer free from my thyroid for now. He says that sometimes it reoccurres after childbirth but for now I am good. Still on meds but that and my body somehow helped repair the bad things that were going on. So now I just have to worry about my stomach after the baby is born and get on a high dose of antibiotics. So I am thrilled out of my mind to say the least. Still feel awful with everything else but I can handle it for sure. The nurse gave me a hmotoma during the bloodwork I had done yesterday and I was like don't worry it's fine. I was completely numb from the good news, that nothing would bother me. Lol.
So I told my dad. He said oh I knew everything was going to be alright. Then he said oh I took the pictures you showed me of the sonogram and 3d images of the baby to your mom. ( last week I showed my dad the latest sonogram of the baby. They check the baby every three weeks to make sure she is developing well since I am on high doses of meds for thyroid, I also told him that I see my mom in some of the pictures of the baby) then he says, your mother said that the baby doesn't look like her, it looks like your husband. That was it. No omg that's incredible that we can see her face so well, or how pretty she is, or anything like that. I mean lie to me if you have to. It is your granddaughter for heavens sake. So I just said oh, did she say anything else, I mean was she surprised to see how clear the images were? He said, oh yes. I dropped it then. Oh well. Nothing could bring me down yesterday but there was one point that after I received the news from the doctor I wanted to call my mother and tell her. I realized then, I didn't have anyone else aside from my husband that I could share it with.
The one girlfriend I have that is my neighbor has been very strange with me. Don't know why. I have my conspiracy theory though. She and her husband do not have children yet, they are married a few years and are in their thirties. Very sweet couple. However, ever since this happened with my mom, we don't socialize that much because my parents would watch the kids if we went out for dinner with them. It was usually about once a month. Now I don't have or really trust anyone else to watch my kids so we tried once going out with them and the kids one night and although my kids are very well behaved, that was the only time we did that. So I'm guessing they don't want to go out with the kids. But also I think that once I told them I was pregnant which was when I was about five months, she has distanced herself from me. The day I told her we had them over for dinner and we told them what was going on with my health and how it's hard to be excited because of all the goings on, but that we wanted them to know because we like them so much and enjoy their company. That nigh she sent me an email saying that she was trying to conceive and that I shouldn't ask her about it because she wants to be able to wait a few months before telling anyone and that she doesn't like it when people ask her when they are getting pregnant. I just simply responded by saying that I will be here whenever you need and that I wish her all the best.
I don know if that changed our relationship or not. But the only times we talk is really through email. I saw her a month ago because I bought her a birthday present and she came over to get it. It was a small wristlet purse. She hardly opened it. She did give me a hug and said thank you but that was it. That wa the last time I saw her. Of course she always asks about what's going on with my mom, and I always tell her things are the same.
I don't want to be hard on people the way my mom has always been, but I just feel disappointed.
And maybe my conspiracy theories are completely wrong. But I really don't know what else to think.