Well for me I shouldn't be on them at all because they either don't work, or don't work and increase my anxiety and they seem to increase the slight bit of paranoia I normally have to ridiculous levels so then I think everyone is against me no matter what they say or do...people don't really appreciate that.

As for meds in general yeah I might need something for life, not that I feel its going to totally prevent relapses into suicidal depression but at least to help manage the anxiety and maybe keep my mood more even instead of going from ok to horrible every other day, or feeling horrible for days at a time.

I personally think cannabis is a great medication, but I am trying to give the pharmacuticals a try so I can get the help I need...cannabis probably doesn't help with trying to get on SSI since then they could say thats what causes my problems. So basically I am trying to give that a break with the help of meds...since I need something to help. Hopefully the new meds I am on help so I can give up smoking cannabis for a while, seems like something I have to do...but to be honest I doubt I'd want to give it up forever.