Sorry you are having such a rough time. Have you started your mood stablizer yet? If not, it would be a good idea to start them soon so they have a chance to level you mood out. Know it's hard to accept your diagnosis but it is treatable. I was diagnosed years ago and went through denial, too. Right now I'm going through a rough patch too, since having to go off my meds due to conflict with meds I'm taking for my blood clot, so I'm having a lot of crying spells myself. Hang onto you dog and make hubby aware. Hope you see your doctor soon and get some relief.
Gayle