I'm bipolar and I don't know if what I'm going to share has anything to do with that or not.

I find if I'm hanging out with a group of women, and someone mentions how they can't say no to people, the other women all chime in with understanding. They talk about how they give and give till they are depleted.

This is not the case with me, and I feel really bad about it. Am I awful and selfish? When my kids were home I feel I was a good Mom, and I take care of my husband now as far as making meals and cleaning house. My house could be cleaner and the meals more creative. I have no excuse because I don't work.

When my kids were growing up and people would ask if I could volunteer for things I almost always said no. To be fair to myself, my husband was using Meth back then.

I help my mom quite a bit when she needs help with her computer, but she always pays me. I help at the church occasionally, and give a woman rides to appts. sometimes, but I spend most of my time watching TV and playing on the computer.

When I do volunteer at something I usually feel awkward and stupid. Help!