my head is so all-over-the-place that I just want to self-harm to make it stop. I want some semblance of things being "back to normal" and me being either non-functional, or on track, but not this crazy roller-coaster I'm currently on. My moods shift with the minute, and they shift drastically. I want to be able to balance myself, and like someone elsewhere pointed out, the alternates to self-harm just don't work. And I can't pay attention to anything for long, because I'm just obsessing over not self-harming. ugh!