Bless your heart. I do understand, but don't give in. Hold on to you DIGNITY. If you cave in you'll have given up your dignity, and for WHAT? So that he can hurt you all over again? So that he can play those games all over again, and break your heart once more? Don't go thru it again -- once is enough!
Keep what self-esteem you have now! Don't give up any more, or you won't have any left! It's hard to regain our self-esteem once it's lost. These men have a way of stomping on our self-esteem and leaviing us in pieces. Don't go back to him. Hold onto what you have!
Time DOES help heal -- and you WILL feel better in time. But don't give in. Stay strong for your girls. Make sure they KNOW that women shouldn't be treated like this! Otherwise, they too will end up weak and allow themselves to be treated badly. Don't allow that!. Show them that you're STRONG and that you CAN do this on your own! And you CAN. And if the girls are minors make sure he PAYS FOR THEIR KEEP! Make sure he pays child support, and if he doesn't, then contact the proper authorities!!
Best of luck, my friend and God bless! We're behind you. Hugs, Lee