its pretty hard to accept a bipolar diagnosis. it took me years to do so. and even longer to finally get on meds. now, even though I resent the meds every time I take them, life has changed so significantly for the better on meds, I wish that I started them thirty years ago. Oh how different life would have been.

But has Cheshire states, bipolars have to be careful with antidepressants because they will trigger manias. My pdoc put me on Zoloft for my anxiety and I was hallucinating, not sleeping, spending...it was my worst mania ever. yet I can take wellbutrin. you have to be patient and play around with meds. it took me over two years to find the right meds because I am so sensitive, but once we found the right ones, they changed my life.

hang in there.