ArmyGirl I can really relate to the horrible whirl of feelings and thoughts that course through my body when I'm alone. They scare me too.
Is it a part of you? It sounds like it?
I don't know much about parts yet. My t and I will try to discover them. I will let you know what new knowledge she shares with me... maybe it will help you too. I don't know what to do with mine, either. Sitting with you