Hi everybody, and thanks for your replies I'm back after a few days without internet connection.

College is going fine and I regret not having resumed my studies earlier.

The friend I mentioned is my former classmate's crush (I don't see him on a daily basis). Unfortunately, I can't get counselling in my area (I live in the countryside), so I've turned to online groups.

I've come to realize that many people are insensitive to the suffering of rape victims. It's very difficult to deal with this. I got comments such as "you have to get over it and go on with your life", "men can be violent when sexually aroused, so the rapist can't control himself", "you shouldn't keep thinking about the past", "are you sure you didn't want it?"...

I'm sure I suffer from PTSD. I have a large number of phobias which I developed just after the rape: a phobia of sleeping in certain beds, of sex scenes on TV, of sex jokes, of most social situations...

Thanks for your support. I'm sure I'll be able to handle this situation and become my better self.