Wrote this in a PM earlier:

"I don't really know how I am today. I'm sad and frustrated and tired and preoccupied with the last few day's dramas. I feel sort of abandoned by everyone - students are now not mine anymore (always sad as I get attached), few of my friends here have not responded much lately to things, the whole ******** with L and A, my friends in England I never get to talk to unless I initiate it, some of my Ontario friends are the same... I feel like I only get to talk to people if I put the extra effort in, because they never message me if I don't, I can't even remember the last time I talked to my sister-in-law or nieces, I actually really liked my one-night stand and would like to at least be friends with him, but my phone was dead and I don't ahve his number and he hasn't sent me a text or anything, the mental health worker guy was supposed to call me on MONDAY and still hasn't... and the tattoo artist hasn't confirmed that he recieved my email."

Well. I suppose that sort of explains the loneliness and feeling rather overwhelmed and abandoned.

And yes. I DO in fact have good friends who ARE here for me in many ways... but that looks like a good chunk that is just bringing me down. I try really hard to not worry about it too much and to not let it get me down... but it does sometimes anyway.