Inky,

What steps are you willing to take towards changing your life? You can keep on doing the same things, and nothing that anybody offers or does for you or says to you is ever going to make a difference until you decide that you can handle the change.

Your T and Pdoc have tried to help you, and people here on this site have offered help. What have you done with that? What do they have to show for their efforts?

I'm not saying this to pick on you or make you feel bad. I just see some of my own resistance in the things that you do. I'm trying to work on my resistance and learn how to make real changes in my life, so I do know how hard that is. I'm not always doing so well at it. I do know that nobody can do it for me.

Find what resources you have and do the things you know will make you better and not worse. Have you seen the self-help forum and book on this site? You can start small if that's easier. What would you like to change? Even though we all have things in life that we can't control, there is a lot that we can.

Sincerely,
Rap