Thank you bipolarnurse, that was helpful. I think like faerie said, it leads to resentment.

I know what you mean about getting involved with things when I am "up"! And some people, I believe, have that kind of energy naturally and consistently Just not fair. I run on the depressed side generally.

I do blame some of my social awkwardness on my bipolar. Between having lived all these years with a husband with addiction issues and my own insanity, it just isn't always easy to relate to many people.

Most people I know haven't spent time strapped in 5 point restraints or seen there husband throw a 2x4 through their living room window. Thankfully both of those events were many years ago.

I think I wandered.