Well, I was proof that there IS athiests in foxholes, so my opinion is informed on that belief (non-belief?). In fact much of the things I saw in the service further reinforced my belief/non-belief.

I also have nothing constructive to add to the conversation. I have no experience in psychosis, clinically or personally, but I truly hope that you get all your questions answered, and they lead you down the path that is right for you. Personally I've found I'm happier overall since I shed the last vestiges of my faith. And, even with my illness, I still live more 'christlike' than most healthy, self identifying Christians I know.