I just hate everything about it right now!

Started weekly sessions 4 years ago, when my concern was anorexia. Just anorexia.

Now I am stuck with severe bulimia(daily b/p, sometimes more than once a day, and starvation the rest of the time) AND erotic transference AND caffeine addiction AND nicotine addiction AND gum addiction AND depression! Well, thanks!

Plus, my T makes me talk about my feelings for him each and every f***ing session and he KNOWS I hate that. I shouldn't have told him about transference at all. I don't feel better when we analyse those feelings, I just feel f***ing rejected and unattractive.

I don't wanna go back there, I'm a mess.