Hang in there. It does get a little easier to resist.

I know what you mean by the beauty. I see beauty in the expression of pain, and all those things were once beautiful to me ... they still are to a certain extent. But the more/longer you distance yourself from SI the more you learn to see beauty in other places.

Good luck... and hang in there... you can do this.

(((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))