So it was really good that I did not give in yesterday. My wife and I were able to "have fun" last night and it was on my mind, but I want ashamed because it had been a few days and she had no idea. I know if I had given in, nothing would have happened and she would have been frustrated with me again. I still want to self harm, but glad I had not done it yesterday.
Now I just need to find a t I am comfortable talking about all this with, as it is certainly not my male t...

Does anyone else feel "unsexy" or "untouchable" because if the self harm? Sometimes it creeps me out just getting a hug because I feel so broken and damaged that I may hurt the other person with the slightest contact. I don't even want to hold hands sometimes because I feel so ashamed of myself...

and at 11am, I want to destroy myself again... I hate this up and down with no outlet...