As a kid, I used to believe things like that if I tossed a leaf up into the air I could channel the wind, and I used to dress kind of weird and think I almost was a character in an anime series I'd been reading, like it was created for me, but now, at 19, I'm more logical. I'm very much into the macabre, but I'm a bit skeptical of ghosts and a spirit world because I've never seen one. My poetry can be hard for people to understand. My dad said it reflects my "convoluted mind", but my speaking style isn't especially odd or anything. I have some bold and unconventional, cynical views about the world though that almost make me seem like someone with more of a sociopathic personality, but I'm not, although I do lack affective empathy most of the time. Sometimes, when I'm feeling more grandiose and I've been left alone for the day, I have felt like I might be someone like Marquis de Sade or Oscar Wild reincarnated. Once, I read an article about Sade and woke up with scratches all over my back.

For a while, mostly when I was alone for a good bit of the time, I'd experience subtle perceptual 'things' that I'd consider to be illusions but not downright hallucinations. Sometimes when I go for a walk I feel like I'm stepping in spider webs, but I'm not. There were some other examples, but none of that seems to be occurring presently.