I feel like I'm in over my head with life. I'm way in debt with student loans (which are in forbearance right now but soon won't be). My job doesn't pay enough for me to build up much of a savings and there is always something I need money for. Just found out I need a complete exhaust system on my car (I need a new car, period, but can't afford the payments) which is going to cost $700. That was everything I had saved. I just feel so overwhelmed and anxious. I just want to know that I'm going to be okay, that the bottom isn't going to suddenly fall out on me and make me end up homeless. I've found myself fantasizing about suicide and even formulating a plan a little bit but I'm too afraid that I would fail, and then I would just end up in the hospital and without a job which would make things worse. I'm so scared. I want a break from being so scared.