I feel so alone and even lonelier now. Close friendship changed for the worse after I admitted myself to psychiatric hospital. And my only other close friend, my ex, just told me "You must realize over half of your life is over." and "It's become a daily thing with you. I don't remember the last time I saw you happy." , this after I told him I felt much despair and even more sui on the stupid Lexapro I was prescribed. Not sure how I feel about my therapist right now. I don't feel like she is helping me much anymore. Probably I can't really be helped. She claims that she has been using both CBT and DBT but I have not seen concrete results. Despair.... All I really want out of life is someone to cuddle with. Even if it's on concrete floor. Is that so much to ask for?