I agree its best to have some real life experiences and get to know your potential partner well. When you have this bond, you can share this desire. Its also better to leave religion out of this, since fetishes are often scorned and may not fit in the rigid normal box that religion imposes. Your conflict with religion could be whats fueling this fetish, since the forbidden nature fans those flames. Try to relax and concentrate on meeting a lady who shares common interests and the sexual experiences will come naturally.