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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
"really? you had no idea? none? do you live on planet denial or do you have self-ignorance instead of self-awareness?.... orrr, did none of this pose a problem until a pdoc said it was"
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From my perspective. No. No idea at all. I 100% thought everything I was experiencing was completely normal. I thought sure, perhaps I was more emotional, more moody than everyone else I knew but I thought that's just how I was supposed to be. I thought hearing things, seeing things was normal and had convinced myself that everyone experienced it but never talked about it.
To be honest I didn't even KNOW what bipolar was. I thought sure, I could get depressed... suicidally depressed every once in a while... but hell, I'd snap out of it eventually so I must be faking it. I knew I was different, but no... being bipolar didn't cross my mind.
Bipolar people were "crazy" people that threw things and yelled uncontrollably. That wasn't me...
Until like a year ago anyway.
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.age: 34 female .bipolar I .psychosis .panic/anxiety disorder
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