I can't seem to snap out of it. The whole family was over today and i was fine. You know fine, while screaming on the inside.

The worst part is, i don't even really know what about. I just am. HAve been since the moment i woke up this morning. Now at night of course its worse. Thats how it always is with me. (getting worse in the night) I hate being sad and not even having a real reason to be. I'm lonely but thats nothing new.

I just feel tired, and worn out. Sick of caring about everything. I wanna curl up in bed , pull the covers over my head and stay there. Though i'm afraid if i do i'll start to cry. I hate that most of all. Even now though, it seems i'm to tired to even cry. That takes up to much energy.

I wanna snap out of it but i just can't seem to.