thanks so much Candy

still trying to wrap my head around it. For some reason, I can't seem to "feel" it. By all logic I should have been nervous and excited and energetic about meeting him for dinner, but I was uncharacteristically blase. And even since then, it took me 4 days before I could tell anybody about it aside from where we went to dinner, and even now, I'm just typing words, still not feeling. I'm afraid of what it's going to be like when I DO feel it. I feel like there's a dam inside me waiting to burst.

I've been having the absolute wackiest dreams since I got his first email. Disturbing and complex dreams.