I have been treated for 22 years for MDD and recently visited my psych doc because I had so many things flying through my mind, no concentration, etc. Suddenly it was like I saw a lightbulb go off in his head and he said no wonder you have had such a poor outcome with all the meds we have tried, asked a bunch more questions and was convinced I have a "mood disorder" as he called it during that visit. He started me on Lithium 300 2Xday mid May and continued taking 2 mg Xanax like I have for years to sleep. Immediately felt better for 2 weeks but then sank into one of worst depressions in years. Made apt when my family said I had started interrupting, not listening, rambling from one thing to another, etc. yet I am at one of my all time lows and NEVER feel hyper, excited, etc.?? He increased the lithium to 300 X 3 and added Lamictal (lamotrogene) 50 mg daily. Started this last Friday and am still the same...do nothing all day except lay around waiting on my next dose hoping that will be the one that gets me up and moving around. Anyone else experienced this and how did you cope or did you have to change meds? Thanks for any help with insight into bipolar and or the meds I am on. Not looking for a diagnosis or anything....just some real live people's experiences. I know all meds affect everyone differently but just wanting to know how you felt before versus after if you are now doing well with this diagnosis.