I am beginning to feel weak again. In my mind that is. I was actually planning out in my head last night that I should visit my mother before the baby comes with my husband and try and make things work. One part of me is saying go do it and feel better, but the other part is like, are you crazy? You have come far without cowing down, don't do it. I just feel like she doesn't deserve us in her life since she hasn't and won't contact us.
I have visions of all of us together again, but I just don't see it happening.
I just wish I knew the right thing to do.