roitgrrrl- The thing is I was going quiet well, he was my outlet, now not only did I lose the outlet I'm mourning his loss, I'm feeling terrible about being rejected, although I knew for along time he did far more for me than I for him, this took away any doubts in my mind, I also know I would never let him go in any situation other than what occurred. Even had it been my husband who had a problem with it, I would have continued because we weren't cheating, we were just friends, and he means far too much to me to let go. But that isn't what happened. What really happened is his wife put pressure on him so he chucked me aside without even talking to me about it. Perhaps had he at least done that, acknowledged my pain, exposing any of his if he is feeling any, perhaps it would have been easier. When he knows he is my only outlet and walks away with a "sorry about everything," it hurts all the more.