I was obsessed with going back to the hospital after going three times in 4 months. It was a way to cope with life that was safe and predictable...unlike being out in the great big world. I went to psyche wards...not hospitals and I always came away better than I was before and learning a great deal. I also enjoyed the other patients....being able to directly relate to others that have mental illness like me.

I was not stable when I was wishing to be back there. Now that I am better that longing is dissipating. But sometimes I still wonder...when will I be there again. How long can I go this time?!