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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
Went to church, got a call from my other niece...her brother and his wife had a 1lb preemie about a month ago. I did a campaign to raise them some money. Well, the baby took a turn for the very worst last night. At this point it doesn't look like our little Avery is going to make it. I am so heart broken for my nephew...he lost his dad in Feb, and this was he & his wife's first child. On another weird note...my crazy is acting up badly from this news. I keep seeing "little coffin" in my head. I know that I am creepy and grotesque for thinking this way. I hate that my mind does this, and I am picturing dead babies. Please don't think I am awful...I just can't tell anyone what goes thru my head as it's inappropriate...but I am being tormented by the image.
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Wiki...I'm so sorry to hear about little Avery... and I will be praying for her and your whole family...
Wiki....try to be kind to yourself... to be honest as I read it doesn't look like she is going to make it... a picture of a little white coffin came into my mind as well... I don't think you are "creepy and grotesque" for thinking this way... I think if you could see that it wasn't so abnormal it wouldn't have the same power over you that it does... I was very attached to a baby of a family that I babysat for as a teenager die (they knew she was going to die had an uncorrectable birth defect) and I had lots of these same thoughts...
Just accept that you have these images and thoughts and don't give them power to affect how you feel about yourself... its a fear that lots of people have...