u know what the worst part is, its that i know i'm not alone. I have so many people that i could just pick up the phone and call. When i sink into these lows though i don't want to. I don't want to admit that they're there for me. I don't them to see me like that. Plus, even picking up the phone, i don't know what to say to them. Its hard to explain to myself why i'm sad let alone telling someone else how i feel. I also feel bad caue i feel like i'm hurting some people. LIke when i hit my low moods. I tend to feel guilty about that . After all, i don't want to hurt anybody. I'd never mean to. Especially those that matter so much to me.