I can relate to this very much. I don't think we are broken. I think that we've become so good at not allowing ourselves to cry that our body now just automatically does that. I very rarely ever allow myself to cry because some where along the line I decided it was much easier just to stuff in all back down inside of me rather than to deal with it. I too was sexually abused growing up and have never dealt with that and I am now 40 yrs old.