I don't feel you are broken, for being unable to cry. I didn't really cry, much, if at all when my mom died. I, have, only recently cried about missing her, and this is a little over 3 years later. And I am not convinced that it's because she's not here. I am more convinced, that it's been a bunch of bottled up frustrations towards my father, and she was the one, if I needed understanding about him, to turn to.

I found I was at peace, with what I was experiencing with losing her. I'd been working out, in therapy, the finalization of cutting those apron strings. She and I had a more of a 'sisterly' relationship. She was 20, when she had me, and my grandmother, her mom, was and is, in many ways, that secondary mother figure.

Anyways, maybe there's too much cultural expectations that it's necessary to cry through the pain or what not? If you are confronting things, and know how to feel, is crying necessary to feel loss and pain? Just a thought.