wikid, I am so sorry to hear about Avery... so terrible for your nephew and his family, and for you. Your feelings around this are definitely not weird or creepy as far as I can see. Be kind to yourself.

mu_e, that is awesome about being Outstanding Interpreter of the month! Well done!

(((mkac))) That does suck.

I have had a pretty good day in Budapest, and I did get a massage in the afternoon. Now I can almost look over my left shoulder, which is awesome. My back is still very painful, but better than before. So that is good.

Also, I will try to refrain from posting about relationships or communication in future. I don't think I have anything constructive to say, and I know I can't help anybody else when I'm so desperately bad at it myself. I would so much like to be married to somebody I could be open with, but it can't happen with H, and I'm not about to end a marriage that is in most respects very functional.