Well, honesty, its not fun. Did some severe damage to my kidneys which means I'm in pain a lot.
The antidepressants and the painkillers did the most damage, ears and eyes are a mess. I wasnt trying to kill myself, i just wanted to disappear in a haze, hoping that death would sneak up as a bonus. So stupid... Now its rehab 3 times a week and anti-biotics every day and im not allowed painkillers to numb the ache in my kidneys. Don't do it...