I am not even sure if I am posting this in the right area. I just know I am desperate. I just signed up. I know there is something wrong with me. I can't control my anger anymore, I am hurting everyone around me, including myself. I stay depressed and lots more.

I want help but, fear seeking any in the town I live in. The one time I tried to get help. The psychotherapist just sat there asked me what was bothering me and the whole time I was talking he was writing prescriptions. I finally shut up and he said take these like I prescribed and see you in 30 days. I took the pills felt like crap most of the time so stopped and never went back. I don't know. I am afraid of everyone finding out. I am afraid of losing my kids. I feel like I need to just be put away somewhere.