Thanks so much friends... I know it wasn't an articulate post - thanks for sticking with it
Sabrina - you have me paranoid about my last post. Did it come off as creepy? I hope not... I think it's more the self-protecting 'numbness' that _Sky was referring to. I believe there should have been some big emotional 'bang' after hearing from him or seeing him, but still, it just seems like a sequence of events rather than something monumental, even though this is the resolution to so much pain that has plagued me for years.
Ah well..
_Sky - it's weird - when you posted about your son, I immediately thought of my (estranged?) ex-stepson and felt some of that emotion and joy for YOU.
AS, those were beautiful words of wisdom.
Thank you all for your insights, celebration, and caring