Chances are it won't get better on its own. Too much could happen in a couple of years.
I understand about the stigma, but what would be worse; to turn your anger on your innocent kids and have them taken away from you or to think that people are talking about you and looking at you funny?
You'll be one step ahead of them if you seek treatment. I encourage you to do so. PC is here to support you in your efforts.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.