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Originally Posted by EBD8
The last several years my confusion has gotten a lot worse. It's confusing just to try and describe the confusion that I feel. That's what hurt's me the most. I have 2 degree's and people think that just because at one time my mind worked normaly that it should now. I have shed a lot of tears over this and I cannot dwell on it to long because my mind will go places that I don't want it to. Some days I feel completely worthless because I'm disabled now and when I have those days like I used to it can get very disturbing because I ask myself why can't I function like this everyday. It just doesn't happen for me anymore.
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Yes, it is so frustrating and distressing to suddenly feel the skills you once felt were so strong are slipping through your fingers. I cried for two hours when I found out how much I had slipped and was told I am in a high risk zone for things to get worse and not better.
Cognitive games are my only hope at this point. The confusion comes in out of no where, and then it's gone. This happens regardless of mood. But I'm not giving up hope.
This weekend I lost my keys for 2 days!
I have very speicific places where I put my things. I put my phone, purse, lunch bag, keys, and work badge all together on my dresser. Everything was there but my keys.... I couldn't figure it out. I finally found them last night in my sock drawer under my socks.
Also we ordered dinner in yesterday. The guy on the phone kept interupting me. As a result, I ordered dinner for everyone but myself, and didn't even realize it until the food had already come.... I was really hungry too.
My husband says, "How can you forget something like that?" And I just said, "If my thought process gets interrupted, I forget things. That's how I lost my keys." And the smallest things can interrupt that process now.
It's like a black hole in the brain.