I read the list in the psychotherapy forums. I have all the issues and more. There is a number here I can call that is 24 hours to help anyone with any mental health disorders and they are suppose to also help to set you up with counseling. I have stared at the number for a couple of weeks now and come up with every excuse in the book not to call.

I think I will log for now, spend some time with my kids and for once try not to make any excuses to call that number. I will admit though, I am afraid to call it. I won't call it though until my children are asleep for the night. They already wonder why mommy cries and or gets angry so much. I don't need to stress them more than I already have.

I will be back in a little while, thank you two for the advice. It is helping.