My mother had cancer and was diagnosed when I was two years old. She was in extreme pain all the time. She had to go through radiation, chemo, aternative treatments that I don't even know what they were. (I was just a kid after all.) Eventually the cancer took her mind and she was babbling in a word salad type of way which was terrifying.

And through all of that do you think ever once she attacked my dad verbally or emotionally? No. Her and my dad argued a lot and he was in denial about how sick she was. And despite all her fear and pain she didn't ever blame him or take it out on him or me, even when the doctor told her that if she hadn't had a kid maybe she could have fought off the caner (terrible I know, but something a doctor said right in front of me and I was only 11 years old.) Even then she didn't ever take it out of me.

Maybe my mom is an extreme example, but the fact is.... you get what you give. And, if he's going to attack you when you've stood by him, then you shouldn't stay. You shouldn't take abuse just because of pitty. And you're right, your son comes first and you need to get away from that.

You are a good woman with a big heart. Don't let him destroy that.