well today was my last day in work. it went well i suppose. i felt a little down after leaving because i had to say good bye to so many people. and the prospect of having a relationship with Julie has all fallen to pieces. at least it happened now and not when ive fallen deeper. i am trying to remain positive tonight, but i am tired so i feel slightly negative. i wont fight it though, i will only make myself even more tired with no success. as long as i get good sleep and keep focused on the positives, i will soon drop the bad mood i find myself in tonight. and i left for all the positive reasons, its just the emotional friendship level that hits abit deep sometimes. and today was a good day in work, so many people were so kind to me and gave me an excellent send off, so that was very special to me. and i suppose its just taken it out of me a little. so i will pamper myself this weekend and start a new week as a new start in life.

im back to the forums now, i feel its now time to return. so i look forward to seeing you all around, and blimey! ive realised there are may new members here too so i have much catching up to do!!

see you all around soon

simon