When you stopped taking meds, were you under the supervision of a doctor?
I stopped taking my Anti depression meds, and then asked to have them back.
Now that I have been on the meds for a couple of months, I am feeling better.

I know what it's like to be on that emotional roller coaster. I have paranoid schizophrenia, and the paranoia comes and goes. I'm on meds for it, and that helps a lot.I'm sorry you feel the way you do. All I can say is distractions, and more distractions.I got a Kindle with 50+ books on it. Most of them are free, but I did buy a few. It's just the plain Kindle. Not color or anything,but I love it. You can even use it to browse the web, in black and white only. It's a great distraction.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

Sincerely,

Piraeus