@hamster-bamster Can I ask the specifics of why you were "bored" with your first husband? Just curious.

@hannabee and Christina

Thanks for the responses. You're right, I am absolutely NOT ready to be married right now. I know this. Heck, Jane is ready to be married YESTERDAY if she had her druthers. The gap that spans our expectations is big. I've made it clear that I am not ready to marry and she's OK with this but she still drops hints regardless.

I do not think I'm necessarily looking for something more exciting - breaking it down I'm essentially torn between two girls and got myself into a situation I shouldn't have.