I haven't had much luck with meds either - I am trying to go off effexor - it is hard!!! I am feeling so down today I could scream! plus, i have been having horrible withdrawal symptoms (have spent most of the last few days in the washroom). So, i understand what you're saying about meds. The problem is, I don't know if I can make it without them. Trying though. Hang in there, hopefully life will get better (tomorrow is another day), excuse the cliches. Maybe I can convince myself also of what I'm saying to you...