Welcome Egg!! I also dealt and still deal with death on my mind, as i get older, i'm 52 now, more friends and older people are dying on me every day. i rely on my religion to keep me sane, I'm Catholic but no goody two shoes. In my life now i'm constantly in a state of prayer, my prayers really do work as i see the signs. It is really hard to deal with death, i think more so my own death than others, i hope i'm not being selfish for that. Please praay for me too.