Hmmm smiling does help, but it isn't easy to realize the good results. I'm sorry your friends seem to just want you to make it nicer for them to be around you, rather than fully realizing how miserable you feel.

I think you had a good session,but your depression is countering everything. Try not to think about the session, but keep the memory that it was a good session. (That way your mind can't offer counters to what you remember.)

Please visit the cognitive distortions list at the top of the Psychotherapy Forum... changing how we think and respond to times like these can only help us.

((((huggles)))