Hi. I recently starting spiraling into what I believe to be bipolar psychosis, and now I'm getting medicine straightened out. I'm having a really hard time because some days I can function, and everyone in my family as well as my doctors underestimate how sick I am. Other days I can't even get up the will to live and sleep my entire day away (the medicine doesn't help because it makes me even drowsier). I'm confused and sometimes paranoid and extreme in my thinking. During those times it is really hard to talk myself through because trying to be logical only seems to make it worse. I've been like this for two months now, and as I am a high achiever, this is making me even more depressed. Any advice for how to keep my will to live during these times? I feel like a guinea pig with the meds, and I don't know when I will feel stable and safe again. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, and I think I'm just hanging in there for the sake of everyone around me.