I am still very new to accepting that I have BPD. There is so much controversy in the diagnosis, and I have an ED/substance abuse so many symptoms overlap. Anyways, there is a lot to BPD I relate to such as: unstable ID, the longing to be cared for, self destructive, on going suicidal thoughts, etc.

After a ton of reading (books, academic journals, internet links) I understand individuals with BPD tend to perceive everything as negative/attack which makes it difficult to trust.

I think my therapist hates me. She just tolerates me. I believe I have proof. I am willing to challenge this because I want to continue seeing her, but it hurts because I believe she dislikes me.