Calm down. It's not like I am bashing my skull in. It does not take that much force to create the desired pain to put out the fires. Especially on a cement wall. Can't use the regular sheet rock wall. No marks or scars to cover up. Emotionally afterwards I do feel a little bit more "crazy" than compared to cutting or burning. I realize how looney it must seem to someone who does not do this kind of behavior. It seems just looney to me when it am in clear/stable day.