Awww Hopeless - I don't think you're hopeless. Please eat something or at least drink water. If you're really wanting to try having yourself a fast... there's safe ways to try that. If you're in North America try getting in contact with a local First Nations group, they may have some rituals that you could possibly take part in.

Personally, I set myself up a goal to help get myself through things, that doesnt involve my family. I decided that while I think that life isn't worth living.... I haven't been everywhere to experience enough to fully make the decision. So, I decided that I will have to keep going until I've seen as much of the world as possible. Then, and only then, will I be able to TRULY decide if life is worth it or not. And then it's something I'm doing FOR ME and not for others. I'm not living for other people - I am living for myself and to satisfy my own curiousity.

*hugs*