Thanks everyone for the comments and feedback!

I spoke with my T and it has become clearer to me. She doesn't reject me only takes a step back, So that the treatment remains healthy for both of us. She says she will not let me down, that together we started this therapy and that we will finish it together. What is only possible if she also take good care of herself, because it will be a long ride working together.
I did not hear what she said when she told me this, last session. I only heard and felt 'you let me down' I'm glad I've talked with my T and that she explained it better.

I feel relieved

Bloem